hmmm..didnt go to watch forum theatre todae with ccs cause was totally too tired kept on sleeping...sick again..flu and cough..at least dr. wong noes where exactly is my nose pain tt im talking abt..gt a nose drop that was pretty useful..next dae not pain le..
yesterdae was qing gong yan...disaster for me cause im in a totally gong state staring in space..but we juz ate and ate but i juz stare and stare..too drowsy to do anything too...then took cab with cheryl home..lucky she wanna take cab or else i dun think ill take cab alone...hmmm yarh didnt go sch in the morning..gt mc also slept the whole dae and cleared my tapes..haha but nvr study=x
todae go school again...inter sec sch translation competition...event went on smoothly then after tt i saw mr yee:"u doing this event?why i always see u??"er i paraphrase it myself..cant rmb the exact words..then i was saying i nvr do all events but when u juz happen to see me doing lo...aiyo my result lousy also dun need like tt wat...xian lo no drive to study..i see i scared but the scared i felt the more i felt like giving up now...
after that i went to ncps for elections meeting...didnt intend to elect and im glad that i didnt get elected for any post and juz a committee member cause i seriously think that i cannot commit to this with all that was going on in sch and everything..im too physically and mentally strained to do this...but based on results and elects...i can only come to a conclusion that if u wan to be voted...ur ren ji guan xi muz be good..u muz at least noe all of them well and mostly popularity?if ppl dunno u how they vote for u leh?so many a times voting are based on popularity not capability...i nt saying this voting result is nt gd but i can see some of the results make me feel wah real expected cause of _____...watever..im nt concerned and no longer am...juz like wat frank says...i totally agree..i juz wan a peaceful life now..
after i get my peaceful life will i be v bu xi guan?think abt that after i get my peaceful life ba..but by then i gotta restart all that ive built and go all over again...tiring tiring tiring...why is life so tiring..im onli 17 and im tired..wat will happen when im 57?so many things in life juz make me feel disgusted but wat can i do?this is reality..theres nth i can do..so helpless...
after all the stress given by my teachers..i think synergy gonna be my last major event b4 i step down...but will it be too late to study when synergy ends?it will be may by then alr wor...cant slp well lately..keep waking up..these few daes maybe cause im sick..but im getting headaches with no fever...can feel tt im hot but the temperature is nt there yet...
tues i gt smc cca award interview...dunno wat to prepare think cant too...juz hope that i can get sth for ava ba...but hard to say...ava is always a hard to get any awards cca..so pray hard for me tt i can create a miracle!
oh yar 1 last thing..took off my braces le..gg take my retainers on tues..so pardon me if im taking language tt u dun understand!hahax
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